Back at it! Last streak 3 months

Hello you guys, I've been away for quite sometime. My last streak was 3 months, it went pretty well, still no girls in my life though lol, but that is because of my insecurities.

This year I took a job on a start up, my contract finished it was a 3 month thing, also, I'm taking Marketing Classes, at the end of this year I will have my degree. I feel that Marketing is my thing, though no company has given me the opportunity to work as an analyst and that is a major factor for my insecurities.

I wanted to come back to forums because I want to give this a shot again for at least a complete month. I've been doing PMO every once or twice a week when the blue balls or just getting bored becomes a thing. Also, I want to quit the habit on going to escorts webpages just to see what is available, saving those numbers and writing to them. Then when I feel good about myself I just erase those contacts, is funny, because I write to them, they send me a message and that's that.

When real girls are available, I just don't take the sufficient effort to court them, I mean I write to them, but they either take too much time to answer or not at all, and, patience is not my thing lately, so that is one of the reasons I want to retake the mindfulness concepts I've written about in my last post.

So far I think I'm doing well, at least better than last year, I want to work on my selfsteem and my security issues. I project a really confident image in general, but when it comes to taking action I lack the drive to take it all the way.

The thing is, I haven't had sex all this year so I am not sure if I am gonna get ED, that is another reason why I want to continue with this journey. I also deleted instagram and facebook from my mobile devices, any hot unrealistic expectations chick that appears there probably is not going to help either.

So yes! I hope you guys are doing well.