back again...getting over cam porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by dynamesh, Nov 7, 2018.

  1. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    I realised that ever since i got a stable job again,i've returned to cam sites that charge like 50usd a pop. And it's 2 pops per host. I mainly go for bdsm mistresses that specialise in humiliation play. Yesterday i accidentally offended one of these mistresses and she told me to "borrow money from somewhere and pay them back when i got my pay and enter her room" when i told her that i dont have the funds for this month. Think that's realisation enough for me to stop.

    And i've just checked my cam profile. I've been on this site for years and it seems that the total amount i've spent is nearly 10k.OMYGAUD...

    i am so disgusted at myself. I have set myself a private goal of weaning myself off cam models first before anything else. here's wishing me luck. i'm going to deactivate the account.
     
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  2. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    i just deleted the account..i was about 5k more to becoming a VIP member. i left a long message on that domme's message box. thanked her for making me realise this and said goodbye. but god i feel so hollow now..
     
  3. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    Here's my proof and reminder for me..

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  4. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    Tomorrow,I'm throwing away all my sex toys. That one's going to be a hard. Seeing as how I've spent hundreds of dollars on them..
     
  5. MusicMakingMonk

    MusicMakingMonk Fapstronaut

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    You're doing great man. Money is not important, think about the hours and energy you would waste if you didn't stop. That shit's worth more then a million dollars.
     
  6. Welcome. Are you going to start a journal?

    Message me if you like.
     
  7. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    The thing about it for me is that I still believe in the bdsm lifestyle. But what seems to be a huge throw off now is the amount of over compensation I do outside of a supposed session.
     
  8. It seems that the internet and sexuality are a bad combination. I had a big problem with adult chat rooms.
     
  9. dynamesh

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    I now have a bigger reason to even stop fapping. Today after a session, I ended up with an inflamed penis after peeing(feels like you still want to go but nothing comes out,all the while feeling like it's on fire). I just came back from the doctor's. He said to lay off for a few days and it can kind of cause trauma but i shouldn't let it affect me. Though i didnt tell him that it was cause i jerk off like 4-5 times a day.
     
  10. A NoFap formula:

    1. Watch your thoughts. If a thought could lead to PMO in any way, stop thinking about it and think about or do something else.

    2. Go back to step 1.
     
  11. DonDraper

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    I don't mean to be intrusive because I've never spent any money toward this addiction of mine. $10,000!!!!! Now you have 10,000 reasons to quit this!!!

    But really, how did this happen? Do they charge you per hour or something! That's insane.
     
  12. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    none taken. the minimum is 50 bucks. and the hosts charge about 2 dollars a minute,the highest being about 6 dollars a minute and the lowest being a dollar... and i've been at this for at least 5 years...
     
  13. dynamesh

    dynamesh Fapstronaut

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    and yes it is tempting to go right back to them. telling the admin that i want my account back...
     
  14. soberhenry

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    Can you imagine a world where everyone knows who you really are? Imagine if they knew what you did in your free time. Read threads on this site about people who had their D-day. The day people they cared about discovered who they really were.

    In front of a computer screen it's easy to feel like what we do doesn't count, but it does. It is who we are. Healthy people don't have this problem. We are not healthy.
     

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