I feel ashamed of myself whenver I have a relapse. Every time I have a relapse, I have flash backs of when people insulted or bullied me, and it overlclouds positive experiences I've had. I also have aspergers syndrome, which impairs most of my socail skills, and I'm ashamed of having this. Aspergers is the number one reason I have low self esteem, it makes me feel like a mentally deranged freak instead of a normal person. I've even had people talk to me like I'm slow because of my mental condition. Depsite the fact that I'm extremely high functioning. I also have a feeling that I would have better luck with the ladies of it were not for my mental condition. A lot of negative encounters I've had with females are because of this mental disability. I need someone to help me out, and be harsh. I wanna overcome the fact that I have AS.