anything..... without love, is addictive.

yup. as a 12 year old i took to masterbation like a wounded soldier takes to morphine. i did it on the swing set in the park. humping as i climbed. it felt good. i liked it. warm fuzzy changing my confused little mind. im 64 now. on day 12 of this final detox. this last onion peal off. we require the frontal lobes. the mind of god resides there. fear lives in the back. in the reptilian brain stem. i was dosing god awareness out. i felt i was too sensitive. so i self medicated my brain in order to better cope with living on this cold assed fucking planet. but that was my mission. to enter here as a unknown small child and return. the journey of the hero. i say, we all here on nofap.com are such heroes/heroines. yup. we are classic architypes come to heal the darkest darkness. i see us. i salute us. we are the healers of the dis ease in the minds of god. ours. in so doing we be. we become aware. we become aware it was "just our attack thoughts attacking our invulnerability". ,,,acim. the systems of the controllers dont want us knowing freedom. they like the way adrenalized meat tastes. fuck that. "suffer not the little children: said jesus. say i. time to illuminate the dark dwellers. time to burn the dross. we nofappers are the tip of a healing finger. yup. we touch that which needs touching. we lance a very old toxic place. we release the demons that suck us off in the darkness of fear. trust the process. stand in the light and be deloused. we the children of god clean up well. : ) lets return to all things natural. to mother nature. earth is now a nursery of the gods. "we live in the mind of god and he in ours"....acim. so lets rejoice. it is such a wonderful realization. yeah you might have to turn off the boob tube. when we men recognize the goddess she will have her god. lets trade up. its a good deal. today. now. merely be that which we are. ok ? : )