Anybody want to do a month challenge with me

@HereAgain I hit one week )

 

day 2.Which sports are most famous in your place?I am doing somehow.Actually I wasted a lot of time these two days,hence unmotivated.

 

You're doing good, onwards.

Day 2. Sports, mmm soccer and skating. I'm totally not into sports.
Have decided to go to the gym again. Being doing that for years. Had more breaks but this one has become major with Covid.
Running I mostly do outside but it has also been a few months.
Getting back on that horse and directing my energy to something els than P.

How is everyone doing?

 

Great, keep it up!

 

I am on day 6 now. Also I have started exercising daily at home for 30 min.Very hot summer here.45 degree centigrade.

 

relapse on day 7(yesterday) and even today.PRESS F.

 

Same here.
What was your reason? What triggered ?

Mine was the evening before I was cuddling with my wife, I tried to make it sexually, which she accpeted for a while, after which she became snappy, shut down and went to sleep. She did apologise, and say she was in a loop and shutting down.
The next day she was gone (=trigger) and I was getting ready for a funeral (=stress), from an 81 year old uncle, died of cancer. It was more the meeting of my very, very loud and busy family which I was afraid of and stressed for than the funeral itself.
It might be a self-forfilling prophesy. I cannot handle stress because I always take the edge of which leaves my brain craving high stimulus/dopamine, which makes me stressed

Back at it, let's get better.
How is the rest doing

 

My trigger was my mind.I thought of romance and stuff.Then thoughts grew wilder.Then the river of dopamine was afresh with spring season.Went to the online harem and relapsed .I also am having hard time in handling things.The reason is that I am not wanting to become better(thats why I am relapsing probably)

 

I understand. Wanting to is change is the first step.
But really wanting it bad enough to be able to quit is another kind of magnitude.

Like I saw on a Doctor Trish Leigh video.
The PMO has been my/your comfort, your support, you relaxation through tough times.
Always there. It is like letting go of a friend.

I'm back to square zero. More on my blog later.

 

how is everyone doing?
Keep going.!

 

I am stuck

 

Tell us about it?
How are you feeling?

 

in short , I am relapsing everyday since 11th may.Today I have been clean till now and will hopefully go to the next day.

 

Ah, that is a bad place you are in. Sorry to hear it.
I've been there. I think most NoFappers have been there. It is hard.
But keep trying. You are worth it.

 

day 4. hopefully after so many days.wbu?

 

I'm ok, still here. Lots has happened but no energy to write it down yet.
How are you feeling now?

 

Hi bob.You have a really going to live very long, in the afternoon I remembered about writing to you, and when I logged in ,your message was already dropped.The most important entrance exam of my life is 3 days from me.Tensed up in preparation.Having concentration problems, but trying to work on it.
Come on young man ,get a cup of coffee and write out whatever you want to share.

 

You can do it! Use that PMO energy for your exam, do not let that energy and brainpower go to waste by PMO.
Focus little Grasshopper, Focus!

I hope you make your exam.

 

I wrote on my blog. A bit of a rant.

TLDR:
I got a handjob 3 weeks ago after 9 months of no sexual contact.
Totally messed up my mind, in a bad way, cried my eyes out with some childhood trauma.
And in a good way, I am facing my demons now.
Did (P)MO twice but the last time resetting really hurt.
Feeling much clearer now and going for it.

 

pff, hard day.
But talked to my wife about it, it helps

How did the exam go, @you_can_UK ?