I've been trying to quit PMO for 4 years now, in that time I have made great strides. I went from PMO'ing 2 to 3 times everyother day for years to extreme porn, to maybe 1 to 3 times a week to not hard-core porn. Some times I can even go longer that a week but thats rare. But right now I just want to give up, this balance of keeping a healthy life with friends and teetering on the edge of collapse with this addiction feels like too much. Its such an uphill battle. I really want to give up but I'm not going too, I know it would be worse than the state I'm in now. I'm just not sure I have enough energy to keep fighting as I get older.
I feel the same sometimes too my friend. I was really bad before, which spurred me on to try get better. Now I am same as you. A few times a week and the porn isn't so bad. But we should be aiming to push on and remove this from our lives altogether. Just remember the really low times when it was bad. You don't want to slip back to that if something goes wrong in life. We feel so much better mentally and physically when we are rid of it. Like we can reach our full potential. Don't you want that great feeling of a porn free life? Addiction free. Motivation. Energy. Clarity. Don't give up. Take a breather and be kinder to yourself, then push on and quit for good. We have come a long way, but we can go further. There is nothing more resilient than the human spirit. Good luck on your journey! It's not over yet!
Hey man, I know it's hard and your last relapse is probably not your last. That's because I know that I'm also going to relapse sooner or later. But we shouldn't give up, 3 times a day to 3 times a week is a great achievement. You could use tools to lift some of the burden off your will power. I personally use porn blockers and they have been helping me a lot. I would have been probably relapsing every other day if porn was a click away. You should make some changes to your environment so it could help you achieve your goals. If you want to try good porn blockers, I have listed some here: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...ower-an-aid-easy-streaks.272658/#post-2490733
Thanks man, its just nice to know that others feel the same way. I actually just relapse today after about a couple day streak. I definitely want to learn to be kinder to myself when I do relapse, and to not think the world is gonna end or that all my progress is gone because of a relapse. I'm feel like I am learning to have compassion for myself one day at a time.
Ya I have a porn blocker and its actually pretty good, there is even a pin code that you need to make any changes or Uninstall it, I don't know the pincode so thats good. My problem is that I have reddit one my phone and thats what I use to relapse with. For some reason its hard to let that app go. Some times i block reddit altogether with my porn blocker, but then I tell myself that I can have it back and ill be careful, then when I get reddit unblocked on my phone I relapse again.
Could you share that blocker with us?? That's funny, cuz I was searching for a solution for reddit. The only solution I've found is that you could block reddit images and videos so you get text-only reddit. However, this could only be done on PCs not mobiles. If I found anything, I will let you know.
I was watching a video the other day where a wise fellow said: Even though we fall into the same repeated acts (which are not ever essentially different from one to the other), the very fact that we are disappointed, crestfallen, or feeling bad about it means that we are not really the same person as before, especially when compared with earlier days when we weren't so bothered or even not concerned at all about such behaviors. The point is, we have grown interiorly with the passage of time, even amid the falls. Worse than the falls is giving up. The real heroism is not achieving recovery so much as never ceasing in the trying. That's something one never has to fail at. .
Ya the blocker is called detoxify. Its five dollars a month and its pretty good, like I said you can set a random pin code that you need to Uninstall it so you can't mess with it if you have urges. Also you can customize which sites you want blocked too. Ya I genuinely enjoy reddit and its the only social media I really even engage in, but I always end up looking up porn cause its the only app I have that will allow me too. But I put an end to that by blocking reddit altogether with the detoxify app. Maybe one day when I have gotten further in my journey I can have reddit back, but for now its to much of a risk while I'm trying to heal.
Am I the only one who just found out recently that reddit has porn on it. I have been in there for 8 years now and haven’t even accidentally found any