Hello, Today I woke up extremely horny, my mind went wild and I had some strong thoughts about an ex, tried meditation couldn't control/relax it and I did watch some porn for like 15 minutes but I didn't felt doing anything, I didn't felt anything arousing, I think I didn't connected with that immersive feeling when you are doing it everyday. I felt I want a woman and I felt porn is the wrong place and I closed it before failing in that negative emphaty of really doing anything with whatever woman is in the screen. I am day 13 now, but I am on a total war with nofap for over an year, I always batle to detach from porn mentality and the behavior after a relapse, just focusing my energy on something else. I was fine all those previous days, had some random thoughts but it wasn't really a battle till today because my mind just wasn't there where porn is. Wanna know how this relapse is really affecting my progress. I don't care about the counting the days, I only care about building that healthy mentality of not living in my head, especially sexually. It has nothing to do with porn, I only care having this behavior erased from my life. So what should I expect? Should I expect new cravings? My brain state is like again at day 0? Again, I didn't do anything, it felt exactly like putting a cigarette in the mouth and then putting it back. I think I need to regain my focus on my goals, this few past hours, I am in the zone of porn metal state, either if I am on this forum or hardcore relapsing(thankfully not), my mind is not at the right place now. Gonna read this only tonight so I don't have to think about porn while talking here tomorrow. Thank you.
Hello joyjoy, I don't think a slip up (I hate the word relapse) like this will affect your progress. On the contrary, I see a huge development and strong willpower. This is actually a sign of progress in my opinion. Not many men are able to resist after opening a porn site. But be careful and try to restrain yourself from even opening it next time. You should always expect cravings and develop a strategy to deal with them. Sh*t happens and you can get aroused by a random video on youtube or a random chick outside. But trust me, it gets easier to resist with time. Wish you luck.
hey bro .. i think you didnt relapse just keep going .. and i think thats very good for you that you closed it and you did know that this is not normal thing to do .. that i dont have im the opposit way if i see simple thing remindes me of pmo i cant control my self thats how f#$ed up because of this ! so i think compare to me i think your fine
