Anime struggle

Currently on Day 10 and I’m struggling. Big time. Woke up like a teenage boy with his first boner. Insanely horny today unlike anything I’ve experienced in months or maybe years. Was catching up on some YouTube content and a short came up with animated characters in where the females looked unreal. I mean this is a cartoon I watched when I was younger but the bodies of the females turned me on and reminded me of anime I used to watch.

I don’t have a lot of history with anime it was probably a one month mini obsession I had but one of the scenes in particular is stuck in my head and keeps making me hard. And one of my neighbours who is really good looking and has a good body is constantly in my mind today. Thinking of scenarios etc over and over and I can’t get any of these thoughts out of my head no matter what I do. My head is telling me to binge and release but I know that’s why I didn’t start this journey. Fighting this urge is becoming tough.

 

I relapsed unfortunately. Wasn’t even worth it or felt as good as my brain indicated. Started by thinking I’ll just look up an image of porn. Then did it a few more times throughout the morning until I finally give in to my impulses. I know how to overcome this issue next time. No phones when incredibly horny. I’m not viewing the negatives as I went ten days and feel like I can go further this time.

 

All we can do is reflect and try to do better. When I get triggered if I start searching stuff it’s game over.