And so it is....today I'm starting the NoFap community. I fought this battle before...I'm a twenty year veteran of the PMO war. Its been a problem, has caused problems, and is MY problem. Just like ppl can be functioning alcoholics, I am/was a functional fapper....to varying degrees. I have a good job, good friends, and am a "family" man. I am married to a woman who I absolutely love, have two kids and a stepkid. But I still liked the porn. WTF is wrong with me? My life is just blah. I have no stimuli outside of seeking porn for sexual gratification and stimulation. I overuse, and thus have relationship problems. My wife knows about the PMO. Hell, she knew I was a recovering addict when we married. I've been successful and not so successful through the course of our marriage. So here is the quick recap, the last two months shes been treating me great, so the very day I decide to reciprocate, do the right thing, and make a big push to kick the habit, instead of giving me support, she mocks me. Shes mad. I get it. She says hurtful things. I take it. She doubts me. I deserve it. I just want to bang my head against the wall. But screw it...I'm quitting for good anyway. I'm doing it for me. Porn is selfish...I'm going to use the selfish trait to its advantage. I have to stop, so I will. Let's see where this goes. I'm on Day3 of no PMO. If you read this, thanks for reading. I'll be accountable to myself and this community. Let's roll.......
