Long story short: I'm 28 years old and have been addicted well over 10 years and suffer from PIED. 72 Days ago i quit porn, and around 58 days ago i started hard mode. I have two great friends who i told everything to from addiction to PIED and my recovery, they are very understanding and are a huge support to me. After 47 days of hardmode I got together with one of the girls, we kissed, we cuddled, fooled around and she gave me two blowjobs, i was able to get a semi and finish twice. A week later i got together with the other girl, we fooled around, kissed, cuddled, I gave her oral and she finished with a handjob, again with a semi. My worry though, is both times I wasn't as aroused as i thought i would be. I wasn't enjoying it as much as i wanted to. these are two gorgeous girls who i feel very comfortable with. I just felt kinda numb. Is this just a step i'm going through? Is this part of rewiring? Will this improve? If any of you would share their experience it would be a great help, Thanks
Maybe you are just tense from worrying about whether you can perform or not. Well done, getting some perfomance with 10 years and pied after 50 days is good. Keep doing hard mode and continue trying it out. From what I've seen you get gradual improvement with pied especially when you rewire with women as you are doing.
I mean, I wouldn't worry too much. 47 days vs well over 10 years, of course you're not fully healed yet. As others have said, the fact that you're getting action and finishing says a lot. Keep going and things will only improve, just be patient.
Oh yes, this is more of a mental battle than it is a physical one. I'm very nervous and tense by nature, but i feel every time is an improvement. Ty Sir
You might be in a flatline. https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/different-stages-of-flatline-what-is-flatline.90646/