Am I a relationship-phobic person?

I'm currently on day 53 of nofap.

Do you know the feeling, if you to get to know a new girl and after your first date you thought "this could be the woman of my life"

But a few dates later, you get to know this person better and you starting to see the
quirks/small defects in their life.

this always happen to me the last time. maybe i'm a demanding person in dating. and i know a relationship is coexistence with a compromise between two person.
i also can say, i could not feel this "fire" called "love at first sight" whith these women.
and i had many dates in the past

my first girlfriend was my big love, i can say (6 years relationship)
after she, i had a few relationships but mainly not to be alone


could it be a side effect of the flatline of nofap?
or could it be the new period of our new life right now? (online dating, less socializing and so on...)

just a thought
have a nice evening