After really thinking on what I'm into. I'm scared to admit what I would become if I continued Porn

Possible Triggers:
I have been watching porn since I was 12 as many of you probably have. I started trying to quit about 2 years ago and haven't had very much success. What I have noticed is that I have at least stopped my slip into more extreme porn. When I do relapse I end up watching to me some pretty intense stuff

Spoiler: Triggering

(rape, gangbang, dp)

. What really made me turn around is I feel like given enough time I might try to act some of this out one day. I have a pretty messed up relationship with my Mom and have an anger towards women that I probably shouldn't have. I saw an interview/documentary with Ed Kemper and was really horrified that I shared some of his feelings. If I continue with PMO is this inevitable that I will act out in real life? Do any of you deal with this? How am I supposed to get rid of this anger and hate?