Addictions to imagine sexy thing before sleep

i have a bad
addiction thinking
sexy thing before
sleep.
Eg: thinking that a
girl came to me and
seduce me.And the
way i make her
happy.
i have doing this
when i was 5 years
old.i realy no idea
how do i find to do
like that stupit
thinking.
i couldn't stop it
and i can still
remember that i
was doing that
every night and
playing with my
mind until i get
sleep.
when i was in age
10 i relize that this
is wrong and i
shoudn't do
this.after that i try
to stop doing it
every day but i
couldn't stop it
permanatly.
when i was in age
14-15 i couldn-t
stop my self and i
realy addition to
this and some days
i stop going to
school and play all
day with my self. i
know masturbate
can be ending.but i just going to bed and make a good sexy feeling so it can
enjoy all day.
I never thought it will ruine my life.i was a fast learner and now its all gone i couldn't remember my lectures and i cant slow mathamatic like before.i feel like im loosing every day.and all my abilityies knowlege are reducing,
Now i m in age 24
and i have
depression,anxiety no good
personality, i m
totally different
from other boys in
my age,no social
life and i feel
confuse and now i
m useless man
i feel that my mind
is out of
control.The bigest problem is i'm afraid to do a job.with this matter. will reboot cure my all problem? I can give more info if needed.
Dont mind if my
writing is incorrect.