Addicted To ts escorts

Hey,

I don't fall in the same category but I was just curious. If you don't mind me asking, why do you feel so bad about looking ts porn (I guess ts stands for trans?). Is it that you feel guilt for this specific type of porn or because it's just porn and even if you'd watch a different type, you'd still be ashamed?

 

Hi @SmellyFeet, I was addicted to escorts and more … How you defeat this addiction? Well, like any addiction. There’s no way around, no shortcut, no quickfix, no magic pill unfortunately. The only way is through. Through the storm and the withdrawal symptoms. What saved me was starting Vipassana meditation, attended first 10 day retreat in 2017. Joined SLAA in 2019, CoDA in 2018, worked the steps.
Needless to say defeating means quitting. And do not go for perfection but progress. Make a decision and have a vision. Use energy not on fighting old but building the new. Before I continue may I ask what you’ve done so far regarding healing and recovery?

 

Yes meditation for me has really helped too. I’ll listen to Eckhart Tolle out in nature every day. Plus go to Buddhist centre. I applied adult locks to my devices so it’s a struggle to quickly have a look at a weak moment. I’ve got an accountability partner I message daily 5 things I’m grateful for, then think of an affirmation to say in the mirror looking into my eyes. Eg “You deserve to be free and happy” ( keep it positive) I micro dose every 3 days too and have joined a recovery group. I had a psychologist who worked a lot with compassion and shame reduction. It’s took years but I’d done probably around 100 t’s so was in deep. Now I don’t find them attractive and just weird tbh. I’ve got a date with a nice girl this weekend and it’s good to be chatting to someone normal rather than trying to escape loneliness and trauma calling up those weirdos.

 

Sounds absolutely Horrific bro.

 

Yea there’s a huge amount of shame attached to it which makes it taboo and gives it a big toxic high, shortly followed by despair. It’s better to just forgive yourself realise it’s just some dude with mental health issues usually from Brazil who is desperate and lonely and likes the validation and attention. It is not a female mythical creature designed for sex sent by the devil! It’s just another broken human. A lot of them get into crack so they’re obviously not for filled. You’ve been through a lot of pain in your life I take it to drive yourself to addiction. Don’t be hard on yourself be encouraging and kind that is how you’ll beat it.