Day 10! No urges yesterday. Met my GF and we went out for a daytrip to a neighboring city. It was good to do something fun and we spent a lot of time talking and laughing. At a certain moment we had a moment of miscommunication which caused her to go on a angry rant for 15 minutes. We talked about it, she apologized and we moved on. The evening we kissed and had a lot of difficulty not to go further. When she went back home, I didn't had the urge to PMO at all, but this morning I woke up touching myself. I stopped it and started my day.
Checking in - Yesterday I had a slip, I was lookin at some instagram profiles, with semi nudes photos and shit. I fucked up when it comes to self care because I was eating junk food and not sleeping properly. Life goes on, I`ll keep trying. By the way, I never got that far, it was 37 days straight.
I have blocked all Social Media except LinkedIn. And in Social Media I include YouTube. I would spend hours watching video's there and it would inevitably lead to porn. I don't want to be tempted.
Day 11. A few urges, as I met my GF in the afternoon. I had a busy day, so no time to be bored and be tempted. Didn't take the time to work-out, but set out to do it this week. And I also plan to go to bed earlier. I see that both reduces the risk of relapse greatly.
I am will. I am an 18 year old college student from Maine. I have struggled with ssa all my life. I grew up in a religious household. Recently I’ve been rebelling and going on grindr, watching porn, and masturbating. I want to turn away from these immoral behaviors and remain celibate my whole life. I want to learn more about Christianity and live for the lord.
Yesterday I had two full blown relapses. I thought it would destroy me but actually, I`m good. I talked with my therapist, watched John Wick 3 with a friend of mine, it was a good day. I`ll get back on the horse, hopefully I`ll bounce back fast.
You need to find out why you want to quit. Reason it through for yourself (or with the help of a loved one), and get to know your patterns. Next step is to do it for long enough until you have rewritten your patterns. Spoiler: it takes a lot of time. Furthermore, I know there is a group on NoFap called Catholic Fapstronauts and that would be just the thing for you!
This may be an unpopular opinion, but if you've had homosexual feelings since puberty then you've got come to terms with that. How you live your life - that's for you to choose on the day by day. Don't ruminate about the future and whether you'll be doing x or y.
Day 12 Yesterday morning the floodgates of my mind seemed to open and all the porn I have ever watched flashed before my eyes. Some of it did something with me, but the rest just passed by. It was unnerving to me, but it stopped after a while. No other urges during the day. Went out for a run yesterday evening and it didn't go so well. Better luck next time.
Hey man you likely are "clear" in terms of resetting your brain. Even if you relapsed by watching porn, make sure to feel good knowing that your reward system isn't hijacked anymore. However, of course you aren't a given a free warrant to watch more porn!
Day 13 Almost hitting the 14 day mark! Didn't have so much urges yesterday, as I guess I was too busy with my job. Stayed up late to work on my own business. However, short nights do not help me recover and will eventually lead to relapse. But as I'm switching habits, its tempting too switch one addiction for the other one. I notice it's good to keep on remembering why I have started. I've picked up the meditation challenge from a different thread. Very helpful in calming me down.
