Day 0 Relapsed. I was edging & peaking porn. So i thought thats enough its cheating. Now i have to set some strong rules regarding to NOFAP.
Day 6: done baby. My mantra to be calm: Meu nome é ari eu não estou nem aí, eu vou é pra casa porque tô com vontade de cagar.
thanks, ill be here till they shut down the forum or until I die. Thats a very good reason to be better.
Huh, had a nasty fight with my parents, had I means to take care of me , I would have moved out when I was 15 itself. There is a silent calm after every fight but they never come to an end. Sometimes I think half my problems have been caused due to them , even the habit of PMO. I don't know what to do. How do I get out of this mess ?
Day 4 Been off the forum the past few weeks. Busy but also just a bit negligent in my recovery. Hit my longest streak (!) of 22 days. Made some good decisions I'm proud of. While traveling for work, I left my laptop in my co-workers' house and had no access to P. really helped make the willpower battle easier for me. When I returned from my work trip I could just feel the relapse coming. Stress, combined with spending too much time on my computer watching video games (I'm a fan of DotA and was tuned in to the big yearly tournament, the international), made me drop my guard. I don't feel too upset though, really. I feel like I can watch myself better now and though I did see this coming I know what I can do to prevent it if I stay more present. I haven't had too many urges since then and my stress has returned to normal levels which has helped. Relapses are just data points. I'm not a worse person if I relapse and my sense of self worth shouldn't drop. I learned something, and I'll do better next time. If not, the time after that. Things are on the up and up for us all, guys. (lifted this idea from the porn reboot podcast which I really recommend)
Day 61!! I passed my last streak of 60 days ! I did 60 days back in 2019, and I relapsed in November. I was just reading my old posts, and the reason why I said that I relapsed was because I was feeling in control of my actions and too confident that I thought it was safe to watch something more explicit. Of course, that was my brain tricking me and I ended up watching P. These days I have been feeling good, but I'm not gonna fall for the lie that I can relax and go for entertainment with explicit content. These last 60 days have been very different from the last streak because now I understand a lot better how this addiction works and what we have to do to defeat it. I hope I have the willpower to keep learning more because knowledge has been super helpful for me. Good luck, everyone, and have a nice week!