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Hey, I searched it on google but couldn't find the pdf. Can you please attach the pdf in this thread.

 

https://www.academia.edu/39057478/Rebooting_as_the_Best_Remedy_Season_1-40

 

Hi,
I've also been PMO for over 10 years with multiple M a day. I'm 167 days into reboot and I've had a lot of improvement, I can have sex but still not recovered fully. 90 days is enough to break the compulsive habit of watching P every day but not enough for sexual health recovery, especially for long term PMO addicts like us. Be patient, you just need more time to heal. Are you still suffering with PIED? Or can you get an erection but have premature ejaculation?

 

The fact that you can get an erection is fantastic news and a sign that you're over the worst of PIED.
The biggest cause of PE in my opinion is anxiety. This is very common for sufferers of PIED or any other form of ED. It's your subconscious brain panicking that you might lose the erection or not get it again when you need, so it pushes you to orgasm very quickly to get the job done. This can be worse if you've been holding in an orgasm for multiple days. The more times you experience a good erection and have successful sex the lower this anxiety will get, reducing PE.
In terms of penis appearance this has been very up and down for me throughout my reboot. When I was in the worst flatlines and my libido was absolute zero, my penis was very shriveled with no life in it at all even if I touched it, very scary feeling. This has improved non linearly it was normal for over a month then I flatlined again and it went back to feeling dead.
But interestingly very recently, over the last week and a half (from 159 days into reboot) my penis has been bigger and more full at a flaccid state than ever before and balls bigger and hanging lower. This has been consistent for the last 10 days even though I had sex in the middle of this time. There are definitely improvements in penis appearance when you cut out masturbation for a length of time and I believe you can improve this even more along with sensitivity if you use penis moisturizing creams. I have yet to try this though..