A way of light

Trying again a new beginning. My last relapse was horrible; I fell deeper. All the energy I've accumulated during the reboot process was used in a horrible way. I'm felling bad about it. But I will not quit the fight. I know myself better and I know better the benefits of being clean, of having less sexual thoughts in my brain and of being more sensitive than before.

Here I am trying again. I'm sure I can do it better. I want to have the control of my body, of my emotions, of my desires. I want to be free from the desire of sexual feelings. I just want to feel again the beautiful power of a kiss, of just a simple kiss.

 

Yesterday I was a little drunk and home alone...and I did not relapse as always!!! that's a good progress. I hope I can stay strong.

 

Having an enormous urge...I think its better to go to sleep.

 

Fucking alcohol.

 

Trying again. 35 days absolutely clean. Definitely this days has been easier than when the first try. I hope I can make more than 130 days ...maybe finally end the addiction? =)