a married man, a looser

hello
first of all sorry for my pretty bad english coz I am a french speaking
i am writing this hoping I would find a solution from you guys, and hoping also you will understand
the real cause of my problems is acually my job, this job that has made me away from my wife and my 1year old daughter (yes I have a daughter,), for reasons that i couldnt tell, I cannot quit that job, but I can anyway show up and be with my family about 6days after 50 days, it is not enough, though.
during this 50 days, i have never and cant betray my wife, due to several reasons
so I thought PMO would be the better way to avoid this betrayal before of course reading about damages and NOFAP
BUT I'm still a looser and i fall everytime
conjugal matters couldnt be solved easily on the phone, life cannot be lived on the phone, so...
its strange and funny but, I do convince myself to PMO, for all x
If we got a problem= i do it to forget it
if not, I begin to think sexually about her= i do it again
last night, I told her that I would come by only if she tells me that she misses me and because she was upset , she said no... so I relapsed
i dont know her well, she doesn't know about that
help me

 

HELLO Delirious 1 2018

Well I may have been misunderstood.. When I say "she", I mean definitely my wife, she's the only woman in my life.
The problems that I mean are the ones that make me nervous and push me into PMO.
I also misused the verb come by, I rather wanna say "go visit and stay during these six days with my wife and daughter"
I dont know her well because naturally we are not together all the time and the phone isnt the best way , in my opinion, to know her well, and to solve all the problems, some of these problems need to be discussed face to face, you know
I've never talk to her about my PMO, she once found out one of the x on my laptop, I promised her to never do it again, but...
after that, I've begun to use the secret mode to not be discovered again
my problem is when start to think about her I do PMO, and when I become angry because of some problem between us or being away, I do PMO
my question is how can I manage to abstain from this PMO during the period where I am away and alone?
I hope you will understand..thank you

 

Thank you so much for your advice bro...
during these six days , we spend time together and we're having fun, and my wife has never been upset in these days...this period is the best period that we've got, (we are even "sexually" satisfied). on the other hand, problems are started to be shown up since I'm alone.. but I think I can now manage to achieve the goal thanks to your suggestion, I got it.
In fact, and believe me, this bad habit ruined my life man... Because of it I had low concentration at school, bad memory, and all is about good memory, low marks then, I lost my friends, wasted time, didnt help and be with my parents, brother and sisters when they needed me.. I am really sorry for the man that I was
Consequently, I have been getting stuck into this situation (6/50)..I live in a country where, and I think in everywhere, successful people are living with their beautiful families, while less ones are obliged to work far away like me, like a homeless: SOCIETY
Because of this habit, I made the bad choice among the multiple choices, and I have to bear this choice...
I didnt want to have sex before my marriage, just the PMO, because I thought, and I still think, that marriage would be the solution.. So, when I got married, I did get rid of all causes of PMO, I could easily nofap , but those problems appeared again and and I dont want to fail anymore, I want to correct all my mistakes and be the person that I wanted to be... I dont want to lose my wife, and I dont want that the marriage which I thought once it was the solution, would be the source of my problems.
thank you