Hey guys for the reference today I am at day 13 (hardmode). I don't know how to write the introduction to this post so I'll just go straight to the point: -This is so far my longest reboot because I never had strong urges, but before this one I always had super-strong urges that made me relapse. Why I didn't get any hard urges this time (yet?) -On my last relapse at 19/2/2018 I had a REALLY, really strong erection. My penis literally faced the roof with a 90 degree angle and the orgasm felt good, so my penile health is OK. but ever since I started rebooting since 19/2 (13 days passed now) my erection is gone and I feel no libido. This can't be anything other than flat-line because my penile health was perfectly fine before rebooting, right? -I don't feel I am rebooting internally... I don't know how to explain but I always fantasize about sex and this makes me feel my rebooting is as slow as a snail. I haven't viewed any nude content for 13 days straight now and I always walk away from any form of media that is Psub. But again I feel no rebooting. Once I fantasize I can't stop it until 2-3 minutes of constant sexual thinking. How to stop fantasizing instantly? -I literally forgot how orgasming feels like and how novel porn is. I really forgot how it feels. I feel like I miss it and want to see how it feels again... But I don't really want to fuck up my rebooting... I really want to be porn free. For a lot of personal reasons I can't get sexually active until I get married, so by going (involuntary) hardmode for as long as I can, I might go 1 decade without any sexual stimulation... How is that possible? Why are humans so inferior at quitting habits? Why can't I just stop touching myself without even thinking about it? When I left facebook I never even counted days, I just decided to not use it anymore. But with NoFap I have to count days, think about progress 24/7, ALWAYS get urges no matter what and a lot of stuff... This sucks By the way I left FB for 2,5 years and I don't feel one bit that I should use it again. Why can't I do the same for NoFap? I also feel constant euphoria about my progress. Before this reboot I never managed to get past 7 days. Now everyday I wake up am like "OH SHIT I AM AT DAY 12,13,14,15 HOLY SHIT TWO FUCKING DIGITS HELL YEAH" is this kind of thinking bad in the long run? ALSO FOR 14 DAYS I NEVER HAD A WET DREAM. does this mean my semen is rotting in my balls right now?
libido will come and go, I wouldn't be concerned too much about it, the rebooting process is slow indeed though. I am honestly not sure about the 10 decades with no sex...
