A Life Worth Living

Hey everybody,

Never thought I’d be on this website.

I’ve realised I’ve been addicted to porn and masturbation for many years now, and that its been holding me back from my true potential.

there are two future versions of myself I can picture:

One is successful, happy, and has a deep well of skills and knowledge. He is a all around respected, and liked individual with a strong mindset and endearing attitude. He has wisdom and life force to pass onto the ones he loves and cares about.


The other version, the one that horrifies me, is deeply cynical, bitter and angry at the world and himself. He is coasting through life wondering if he brings any value to others lives at all, or if he’s overstayed his welcome. His dreams have never been fulfilled, but he’s watched others accomplish what he knows he could’ve if he only tried a bit harder or if life wasn’t so unfair.


I am scared I am on a tight rope between the two. That I could be in trouble of falling onto the wrong path, and not know until its too late.

It’s as if I’m watching a slow motion car crash, that takes places over many decades.

My addiction, and impulsive behaviours will be the end of me. But, I believe in fate and I am willing too push fate in the direction I know is destined for me.