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A confession

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ogamisword, Mar 7, 2014.

  1. Mar 7, 2014 #1
    Ogamisword

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    Before my performance anxiety, I remember I moved from porn to masturbating with chicks on Skype for a while, my recollection was that one day I convinced this chick to have cam sex with me and I climaxed like twice on cam with her, even after the first climax my penis was still erect.

    And I had this phase of watching gore, snuff films after climaxing to porn. like when the endorphins would numb my brain I would watch murder videos, I have felt shame for this. its just something I wanted to share and maybe if anyone can come up with a theory to why my porn addiction ended me in this horrid phase.:(
     
    Ogamisword, Mar 7, 2014
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  2. Mar 8, 2014 #2
    French Nico

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    You get used to porn and it does not provide you with enough emotions, sensations, hormon release, so you are looking for harder and harder porn, spending more and more time on the internet to find what could fulfill you needs.
     
    French Nico, Mar 8, 2014
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  3. Jul 27, 2014 #3
    chelo

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    I think It's a good idea (watching gore) to fight the urges just before relapsing, but don't do it too often unless you want to carry on your head images and scenes of brutal violence instead of nudity.
     
    chelo, Jul 27, 2014
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  4. Jul 27, 2014 #4
    singed

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    Just a hypothesis, but perhaps it was a way to externalize negative feelings? Like it's hard to feel disgusted at yourself when you're being disgusted by things so much more extreme. (And in that desensitized state you could watch things more extreme than you otherwise could stomach.)
     
    singed, Jul 27, 2014
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  5. Jul 28, 2014 #5
    Hotshot

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    This is an interesting take on it.
     
    Hotshot, Jul 28, 2014
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