90 days PMO free

So, here it comes..an important milestone..
Its not my first time, but the first time when Im really decided to quit for good.
Not feeling anything special. I entered this streak after relapse which happened after even longer streak. After one relapse my PIED was back (it had more factors of course, like not good relationship with crush). Since day 1 I was mostly flatlining. Slight libido returned few times during hangover (it started to worry me a bit).
Im looking forward to healing.

 

Thank you for a support. Its not yet done actually, I'm aware that there is so much more work to do.
I will consider it done when I will have:
1. Good self confidence
2. Healthy libido and attraction towards women
3. Good erection and satisfactory sex life
4. Good and stable relationship with a nice girl
5. Overall happy life without thinking about porn, my PIED, sex performance and so on...

 

Day 94.. One more good thing today..
I was on a short vacation with a few friends, I drank a lot doring last 2 days.
But had my first spontaneous erection in a long time. So, today, after not much sleep, woke up with solid morning wood and then in the afternoon, during just a regular talk about random topics, SPONTANEOUS ERECTION OUT OF NOWHERE! It was not full, it was maybe 40-50%, but still.. Im satisfied

 

I dont know now as currently there are no girls in my life. But my previous streak I had sucessful sex after about 120 days with good erections.

Now Im feeling that my libido is slowly returning.

 

108 days today.
2 days ago..I met a friend (woman) after a long time and we hugged. She is just a friend, I don't see her as a sexual object. But I got some kind of erection from hugging. It wasn't full hard on, but semi I would say.
Ok, she is a friend and I would't want to have anything with her, but I see that as a good sign.

 

I reached day 121 hard mode. That is for sure the longest streak of no orgasm since I started masturbating over 20 years ago.
I think that the change of habbits helped me reach long streaks. I moved out of my parents house so my room does not remind me of a safe place for porn anymore.

The last time I was that long without porn, I was able to have sex. Now unfortunately I don't have a gf so I don't know.

But 2 days ago I was on a first date with a girl at rhe end of the date we hugged and I felt some movement down there. I hope that it means that I am able to perform.

 

Tomorrow I will beat my record.
So, no PMO for over 4 months.
I don't feel good, mostly because I can't stop thinking about my crush I ended with (obviously) 4 months ago.
And I am a bit lost in this nofap journey. Not that I will relapse, I decided really not to, but my progress is slow. Libido is very low (except when hangover), I get inconsistent and not so hard morning wood.
Still, today on the job i got spontaneous semi, which was the reason Im writing this post. Hope it will start getting better soon.

Alltogether, in 293 days I relapsed only one day (2x PMO binge) with just MO twice (the last one was 19th of february). I had one orgasm with my crush (lets say PIV) in January and I felt like I was cured (libido back and all), but after break up all went down.