90 days down and 90 more to go

I started Nofap way back when (can't recall exactly when) and I have just succeeded in reaching my goal, now the counter is blocked on my PC (don't ask me why) but I know I'm fairly close to 90 days so I'll still call it a success story, however I still feel as though I'm not fully healed so I think an extra 90 days is necessary. Now that I've said all that I would like to go over the changes that have resulted from continued PMO abstinence.

Erections
This is about the only physical change I have had, however it is arguable the most vital to a man's esteem. They are not 100%, hell I've been without a boner for so long that honestly I can't remember what 100% even is, that being said I think its clear that I've made huge strides in the last 90 days, anyone who thinks porn can't screw up your junk is just wrong as far as I'm concerned.

Memory
This is the largest gain mentally, I suppose I can also focus a tad bit better now, but I've always been fairly intellectual so its not like I became Einstein all of a suddenly or anything. My memory now is far better than what it was. To put it into perspective, I just made it back from Winter Break, and I could almost instantly remember all my passwords, and these weren't simple either. I would say that my memory is now twice as good as before, probably better, I can't overstate that change enough.

Kinks, fetishes, fantasies, and etc.
One of the things that is often discussed on this forum is how porn warps the minds of those who watch it, to me it hasn't happened in the way that is typically described. I don't believe any of my tastes have actually changed, however after abstaining for these past 3 months I've found many of the ideas that I discovered through pornography to be incredibly unrealistic (well duh right?) and so I know that watching them is tantamount to watching a work of fiction, so my taste for certain things (particularly Hentai) has been diverted. I expect as time goes by, I shall progressively eliminate more of my fantasies and stuff, but the idea that I simply wasn't interested in whatever I think is wrong.

I believe its about association and such, like I found Hentai to be pleasing because I found regular stuff pleasing, and so it kind of crossed into that. In the same way you can be straight but like a feminine looks fella I think many tastes can be acquired through indirect means. The problem is that its difficult to really understand what exactly one is interested in, for this I believe close consideration and (to beat a dead horse) abstinence is crucial for an individual to understand their sexuality fully.

Perspective
Taking a break from college, and from porn, and seeing family and things like that I believe has changed my perspective on life. I have been thinking about just getting a hot lover, never having children, maybe moving away from family, and stuff like that. I realize now that when we get older all we have left is the memories that we share of those close to us, and even then some don't even get that, and so the idea of raising children is huge for me now. I don't care too much about SO's, I would obviously prefer one but I know I can raise kids on my own so I can get the life I want one way or another.

I also understand just how horrible my perception of women has been so far. I used to think that I got nervous around women because I was afraid of them, now I understand that its because my perception of women is associated almost entirely with porn, the very presence of a half way decent looking female made my palms sweaty and my mouth dry. Really pathetic now that I look back. Its no wonder females didn't want me, I was clearly only interested in one thing and one things only. I still likely have the same problem, but I will try to fix that part of me.

How did I do it?
Nofap isn't the answer, I'm talking about the website btw and not prolonged periods of porn abstinence. The reason I say this is that one of the main reasons many people become addicted is because they lack the dopamine that they so desperately crave, and so they look for alternative avenues to compensate for that deficiency. The result? they become addicted to drugs, sex, games, porn, whatever gives them that rush. So in order to leave that loop you need to replace it with positive things that produce dopamine. I already had a strong will and good conditions so it was perhaps easier for me than others, but nonetheless I know that Nofap isn't the answer. Sure this website gives valuable information that is needed to quit PMO, but ultimately you don't want a website to be your method of overcoming porn addiction, it just won't compare to real life connection no matter how you slice it.

There you have it, I intend to make a return at day 180 or so. I will let you guys hear all about it when the time comes.