Day 0 but the motivation has returned. There's a lot of going on in my life. My son and daughter are a source of stress and add to my problems. This time they are more stressful than my job. If I didn't worry about their future, I would be fine but they are addicted - one to gaming, another to social media.
I'd love to have so much compassion to my children as you have for me. I know that it's only an addict that can fix his life. If an addict doesn't want it, no one can make him do it. I know that criticizing or giving an earful is not very effective. Forcing good behavior (instead of the laziness related to addictions + generation gap) is not very effective or it's results are short-lived. But I just can't ignore the issues and I see my addiction in their addiction. That makes me anxious because I know what I'm going through and I don't want them to fall into the trap of their addictions for decades as they will have to face consequences. As a result, I worry about their problems... instead of handling mine. But this is life - no breaks, one has to push on against the grain.
Day 0! Reset cause I had some alcohol during Xmas holidays. Not much, just one pony glass of liqueur and two booze filled candies, but I guess technically still counts. 2 lives left.
