90 day challenge! nervous but excited

Hi guys,

To give some context about myself. I started watching porn at a very early age sometime after I was 11 years old. I am a chronic masturbator, I've read online it's at the point where it's unhealthy. I was doing it about twice a day. I have logins for porn sites I subscribe too, yea it's that bad.

I am doing this to improve my sex life, there are times where I can't even get up especially when it comes to one night stands because I'm less engaged and less aroused. I thought it was because I needed something deeper in a relationship and that may still be the case but the more that I've read in all of your fapstronaut journeys it is not the case at all. My psychology is all messed up and I'm only really aroused by porn and if I don't stop and reboot now it's going to get worse. I will say for sure I have PIED, I have zero problems with PE.

Also when I did have a girlfriend for about 3 years we would have wild sex all the time. But it was very hard for me to ejaculate from actual vaginal sex. We would have rounds where I would just keep going and she'd finish me off with head. I have cum from sex before but I could count how many times on my hands. I always thought it was a super power but a lot of girls outside of my ex have seen it as disrespectful to not orgasm during sex. So... it was a little embarrassing knowing I couldn't ejaculate from actual sex most times.

I've read there are physical benefits as well like hair loss prevention, clearing up acne, keeping more vitamins and minerals inside yourself and obviously higher testosterone levels. I want these SUPER POWERS! So I'm really looking forward to that! I really do love porn. And that in itself is pretty sad... Cause I'll have a naked girl in my bed but still be thinking about porn. Kind of like that joseph gordon levitt movie.

Anyway I'm excited to start my journey. I started my journey on Jan 15th and I didn't make a thread cause I thought I could do it without it. But I relapsed yesterday... so I'm doing this to hold myself more accountable.

Please help me and support me through this journey. I really want to do this and get out of the habit of watching porn and retaining all my sperm. So please comment to this thread with tips and tricks so I can power through these 90 days.

Thanks so much!

 

Also wondering in terms of best practices. I follow a lot of pretty girls on social media like instagram and twitter. Should I unfollow them?

 

Thanks Roady!

I almost relapsed again just to get it out of my system. But i know I need to keep strong. Every time I feel like doing it I just try to stay busy or take a walk outside.

I'll keep posting in this thread to notate any struggles!

 

Also is there a way to just block porn on your laptop? Like a parental control? I get on my laptop and its like torture. After the 6th day my hands just started typing by itself...

 

Thanks!

 

Does anyone have opinions on fapping without porn? Is that healthier?