Day 82 of 90. 8 more days to go. Could be that hardest days that I have had to deal with. No urges, but have been thinking about things that caused me to have urges and to continue to avoid those things.
Thank you for your post. I was trying to fight it and failed again, Day 0 again. But i think you're right. When i'm trying to fight it, i lose every time. Now i wanna try to ignore it and try to do other things when this thoughts come up. Ty
Yes, I did the course. It has helped. I’m on my phone in my kitchen right now. It’s 6:23 AM, i wake up around 5:30 in the morning and earlier this summer i was trying nofap but laying in my bed watching youtube videos and my brain would go i to zombie state. Then I would edge, then I would relapse. The course suggested I change my environment so i do not physically have my phone in my bedroom or bathroom anymore. this is where I did 95% of fapping or edging. My dog is out here in the living room staring at me. I’m not going to whack it with him here. Good doggo. Helping me keep on the straight and narrow. ha ha Try the course, what’s the worst that could happen? It works?
Day 14 / 90 Yesterday was tough! My brain would sexualize females I would interact with in public and also was fantasizing about past sexual experiences. It was like my brain was craving excitement. Tried some prayer and meditation each time it happen. Just a few quick deep breaths and some centering prayer. It helped. Saw this video and think it is really helpful in that edging has been the #1 thing that messed up every effort to quit porn ever. Edging is a TRAP. Don’t do it guys. Turn off the PC or phone instead of edging.
Day one of "Hard Mode." This is my first attempt at a 90 day full reboot. Extremely nervous but I know it's what I have to do.
