65th day. Bad day yesterday, consumed with sexual thoughts and could not stop myself getting highly aroused, peeked at P. Its amazing how difficult this can suddenly become again. I will make it to 90 days but I'm definitely not rebooted yet.
2/90 I long for the moment I would say : "I'm free"... not the moment I write the number "90" twice..
That you are here with the goal to improve yourself and grow into the person that you want to be, and know that you can be, is a sign of your strength of character. Personal development is tough, becoming the ideal you and living the life that you desire takes work and sacrifice, discomfort and pain. But that's why it feels so good when you get there. Enjoy the process of getting a little bit nearer to your ideal every day. One day at a time. You'll get there!..
Today is day 69 I feel really good I think I'm definitely rebooting and rewiring the first time yesterday my wife's and realized that I don't even care about porn I don't even care about masturbation all I care about is mutual sex having an orgasm with my wife nothing more all I know is when she's ready is when will do it and I have to pin my faith in God and my wife that we will reboot our marriage I have forgiven myself and it's still a process I'm ready to take this as long as it'll take 90, 120, 180 whatever number comes up I feel I've got more confidence to be able to do this I'm also stop drinking and I'm work work weaning my way off of antidepressants peace to all fapstronauts don't stop your journey remember only you can stop forest fires (pmo) not Smokey the Bear hardmode pmo is the only way to go
15/30 15/90 Halfway to my goal of 30 days, 1/6 of the way to my goal of 90 days! Today has started off well, having coffee with one of my buddies and talking through creative design ideas for projects that I'm working on. I had a few moments of temptation yesterday. A goal during this is to train my mind to bounce my thoughts and eyes rather than entertaining and dwelling on what I see or comes to my mind.
Just ask would Jesus approve? Or your mother? Or the person that god designed you to become due to this?why are you doing it?
Foxislander, I am doing this for layers of reasons. One is obviously the same as everyone else here: we recognize porn and masturbation is destructive. Another is because of my moral code, which comes from my relationship with Jesus. That being said, it is very clear that I am supposed to quit P and M, but I've never felt that I should quit being intimate with my wife. I respect that it is part of your plan and convictions and commend you for pushing forward with it, but it is not part of how I feel supposed to be executing my "Get Free Plan", so to speak. I wish you the best and thanks for checking in on me.
1/90 Hola. Estoy en el primer día del reto. Me siento con angustia, al pensar en lo que tengo que dejar, hay cosas que me gusta hacer y que me llevan a masturbarme; me inquieta dejar de masturbarse por el place que me da aunque después viene lo terrible. Estoy también ilusionado por la nueva experiencia, el vivir libre sin la adicción. Congo que valdrá la pena el esfuerzo.
