1/90 I am back on track. I went on a dinner date last night with my GF and we had a very good time. I was once again reminded of something very positive going on in my life and that is my relationship. Today, I have very positive feelings and the grief is very mild. I am going back to the drawing board to ensure that my relapse prevention plan takes into account life-changing events like the death of a loved one so that at the very least I do not medicate my negative emotions with PMO.
Thanks! I'm Finally getting somewhere now.. It took a lot of time to get here. I won't get too confident. Healing takes time and I could eff up anytime if I'm not careful. I may not feel horny now but I know it can come when you least expect it. But I do enjoy the ride right now. It's so nice to not be bothered with the horrible pains of fapping. The headaches, lack of motivation, bad sleep, feeling unpure, dry red eyes looking back at you in the mirror, no life flow, etc. I don't want that so.. I'll continue and see where the waves of life can take me. I used to have zero flow, but now I have many projects in the works. This time I want to break my old record of 124 days. I started that streak almost exactly a year ago. But this time I started in February, not March as before.
36 "The version where you are bobbing and leaving and missing, the punches can't hit you. That's the version you need to be. But when you're fapping you start catching those fists on your face"
DAY 0 70 days + without Porn - feeling free and fantastic! No feeling degraded and no shame post M...good signs. Aiming for longer than my current PB of 33 days without MO too - retention is so powerful! Thanks for all your support!