I think that because I wasnt making my a.a. or g.a. meetings and wasnt putting recovery first when I stopped the porn I went to gambling to fill the empty spot.Its a result of not maintaining my spiritual condition. If I dont keep that as the top priority in my life I get in trouble. The pmo became number 1 for a while a d when I stopped I had nothing to stand on. Good question. : )
A week now of no pmo and a day free of gambling. I went to my a.a. meeting today for the first time in 3 weeks. It was good to be there. Also journaled morning and nite. One day at a time.
I relapse...... I've been tyring to stop this addiction for a year now..... Last year december, still struggling today....... I can't believe that all this time a still can't stop this..... Im so frustrated right now, its like I'm alive but not really living, so disappointed to myslef right now , still i want to do this i made promise long ago that in January 01, 2021 that i will atleast stop masturbating for 1-9 months, but i only have 1 month l, so there's still hope for me.... If i fail this tho, idk anymore....
One of the things that gives me hope is reading the journals of some of the people on this forum who have been working on this for a while. Many of them started just like you describe, but now have long streaks of no PMO. It's not easy, but patience and persistence pays off. Keep on trying, you (and we) can do it!
Day 13 done. A difficult day yesterday. I was feeling very tense and anxious about something happening in my life and PMO was a big temptation to relieve the tension. A tough workout mid-day helped, and I'm feeling better today and ready to face the day.
I've been doing this for 50 days, yet I still did not have any wet dreams, or a release in any way. I am starting to wonder where does all that sperm go.
This is day 58 of not doing PM. This is day 0 of not looking at any P-subs. I joined this forum 388 days ago. Of those 388 days, I spend 347 days without doing PMO.
