Day 6/90. urge starts to hit, my body is all feel hot, but I do not obey the urge. it feels excruciating
Day 6/90. Feeling decent today. Knock on wood, but the daily postings have helped me stay accountable and keep my mind from urges. Have been getting good sleep, exercising, and socializing almost everyday. Can really tell a difference when I do that!
Day 9 - 31/10/20 - 10:00pm Bad start, woke up late but had a great day overall, was a high output day. Urges occurred in the morning which is good, they are meant to happen.
First comment, will copy parts of Valier's journal. Thanks for the inspiration! Day 0/90 Report. On scale from 1 to 10. Points. 1. How depressed you feel? 6 2. How horny you feel? 2 3. How likely you want to relapse? 2 4. How much you crave for porn? 2 5. How much good you feel today? 5 6. How much sad you feel today? 5 7. Can you achieve your goal of nofap? 10
Thanks for the link, that's there youtube channel. Everyone should check it out https://www.youtube.com/c/FightTheNewDrug
Day 72 / 90... Where do I wanna be with this? To the point that I stop counting... Because that will mean that my recovery will have become a way of life. And the thing is, it's up to me as to when that is. There won't automatically be a day, 100/365/500 days down the line, where I suddenly think "Now I will stop counting". But after working on myself, my problems, my life, my relationships, my career, my spirituality... All these things, steadfastly and consistently.... Only then will I will go my first complete day without checking a day counter. Because the day would speak for itself. I have completely put this stuff behind me now. It still leaves today, every day to get through and succeed at, in the absence of these supranormal stimuli. I cannot anymore coast along, letting number of days and the attached false pride, allow to be my yardstick. Instead I will live for today, and allow my emotions and intuition to tell me how I'm doing. I understand where I have come from with this, and the miracle of having had this disease arrested from me. That was only the first step, the real work and change is yet to happen.
Oct 31, Halloween post: Day 33/90 no PMO Day 3 no FB video scrolling (often has porn subs) Day 645 attempting this challenge Global Counter 95% (no PMO) since joining Day 228 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets
