So I relapsed. From now on no more slip ups. It's 3 years since I am trying to do this. I feel bad for binging. For past month I never binged but I relapse for only once. I had 4 to 2 days of streaks but no guilt or depression but today I messed up my ratio. I feel bad now that I thrown away all my progress. But I realized that I was trying to control my addiction and not fighting it. I deliberately relapsed because I wanted to. I learned a lot from my progress. That is you have to say no Everytime you want to fap. 30 days is my first goal from now. 0/30.
Current Challenge 0/90 (ends Mar 12) 289/321 Good Days (no relapse) Day 104 weight training (M, W, F) Day 40 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar Longest streaks 67 then 51 (4 years later) - one flash of cuteness lead me down the road of thinking I could handle looking at these porn subs (clothed cute girls) but NOT - as things escalated over several days until I relapsed this morning - my mind was relentless about going back to them daily which upped the anti of content too - not wasting my life binging on this bullshit as I have a life to live, kids to take care of, and a wife to love better so I am back on the no PMO wagon!!! - your brother in this slippery slope
Day 47: How long it has been is starting to get to me. Going to have to be extra careful. Onwards and upwards and restored.