9 Months update

After 3-4 bad weeks in July came August in which I had 2-3 weeks that were the best since I started recovering in terms of mood and lust for life. After that I slowly got into a very long period of pretty bad to horrible withdrawals depending on the day, which is turning up to be almost 1 month long.

I thought long periods of very bad withdrawals couldn't happen anymore after so long, but I was wrong.

But from watching recovery videos I know that withdrawals is the brain healing so I will probably feel much better after this because this is how it has been until now.

 

Yes, after the first 3 horrible months I had 3 bad months of mixed symptoms, which was an improvement, but still worse than when fapping. Then 1 worse month then august with the good weeks. Some days were even better than when I was dapping

 

I didn't have strong cravings until at least 90 days or so, and no cravings at all until then. Then I had them randomly but still rarely, less than a few times per month. But they got stronger and harder to deal with with time, not easier.

 

Urges to watch porn I have overcome them 100%, but when I get extreme urges it's hard not to check hookup ads/apps or the internet and sex stories, which is not the end of the world but also not good.

I'm still working on a method to stop that, but they happen very rarely anyway and I just resist as good as I can until they go away.

For example in order to stop using bad phone apps I use parental control with a random password that will be scheduled sent to me again in 1 month from a new email that I won't be remembering the password either.