60 Days completed/ Benefits and Loss I experianced.

December 20 2019 I started my nofap. I will write to the point.
Day 1-7: Normal at first, urge increased a lot by day 7. My brain was crying for porn and I remember I tear my pillow and cloths just to stop the urges. I know it sounds extreme but thats what I did.
Day 7-16 it was like a roller coster. Some night I felt very high urges and my rational brain was failing me to put forward any reason to keep going with nofap. My attitude was 'what's the point.'
Day 17-26 something happened. I was a superman. I was so productive and motivated that I never felt.before in my life. It was hard to sleep at night because of excitement to wake up next day and work on my goals. I thought I unlocked the secret of success and hapiness.
Day 26 hit me hard.Very hard. I was so demotivated to do anything. Sleeping at bed became boring. No interest in anything. I like to read books a lot or playing pc games atleast when I am not productive or eating tasty food. I lost all the interest. I was not interest in food, games, books, movies, social medias, girls, porn, anything you name it. I than learn about flatline and got relax that this happens.
I tried everyday to do my work but it was almost impossible. I should also say that I am a big procrastinator since the starting of PMO i guess.
Day 36 to Day 42: My interest was there or not I couln't tell but I was able to read again for sometime or play CSGO for 3-4 hours. I thought I was coming back.
Day 43rd: A new problem began.Concentration. I couldn't read a single line and my attention shift to different object. I am always a focused reader but I lost that talent now. It pressured me so much that I started searching all over the internet that is it happening because of nofap or just natural. I learnt its a withdrawal sign. I relaxed again.
From Day 50 my concentration started coming back, I can say 50% has came.back but it will take a long time to rewire my brain.
I was addicted to porn for 10 years, once in a day or once in two days. I devloped social anxiety, stage fright, searching happiness in wrong places became a hobby for me, thinking fantasies like girls will like me if I do this or that.. or becoming.famous etc etc.. These things are going now..I can feel. I feel the confidence is building inside me. I feel the aura is on my head is getting strong. I feel the positive energy flowing in me.. I think like nofap just like a mobile reboot..
REBOOTING: 47% COMPLETED.
This is my mental image now in my brain. There is no excitement now, there is no sadness now, there is no fantasies now..now there is a balance which is creating... I still get urges but now it is easier to control and everytime.I control my willpower becomes stronger.
Next update on 90days.
Adios.
p.s there will be lot of spelling and gramatical mistake. Please, ignore as I am not publishing this in a book.