40yo lifelong addict

Well, you came to the right place. Use your wife as motivation to overcome your addiction. Be a better man for her sake.

 

Welcome BOT

 

What are your symptoms?

 

welcome to this journey of self improvement , this way u are not just helping yourself but many young guys will get to know that how porn can damage their future life , as you are experienced , you should share the experience , the difficulties u faced in social life etc etc so that we can learn those things quiet early in life . thanks

 

I like that you are here for your health not trying to please someone else. It’s good to see you and make that decision.

At the core of pmo is self hate disguised as “self love.” Doing this for you means no one will have to carry your burden. That for me is the core of a man being a man. Hoorah!

 

Yeah?

 

Same issues here man.

 

I will be 40 this year and have been addicted to PMO since around 15yo, if I recall correctly. A sense of my addiction was realized about 6 years ago when an ex girlfriend from way back got married. It may come across as strange but I developed a horrible obsession with her. The idea of another man having sex with her would almost drive me to the brink of suicide. We had only had sex twice and it wasn't good. Not that she was bad, we were just out of sync, but a door of hell got opened somehow. For some strange reason, when I found out she had gotten engaged, the torture literally went away at the blink of an eye, and I realized I was addicted to PMO. So for practically 20 years I was so steeped in obsession and PMO and I had no idea what life was. To this day, what I went through with her was, and is still, a mysterious phenomenon. I have struggled immensely since then, but without a doubt, NoFap has been a huge help over the past few months. Reading testimonies and realizing millions are having the same struggle creates a sort of "virtual bond" and will definitely help you. The biggest enemy to healing is to think you are alone.