yes that mindset of porn being a friend is very dangerous indeed. And you are right about it leading to physical and mental disorders. I have been suffering from a never ending headache the last two days. I am anxious, jittery and constantly on edge. This is no way to live. I want to get back to Joe Dispenza's teachings and meditation techniques. They helped me a lot and calmed my mind.
Day 0 I am in a self destructive cycle right now. Self pity, anxiety, hopelessness, and just plain pessimism. Looking at my image in the mirror I just see failure. And there is no one else to blame except myself. I got myself here. And it is me who has to get myself out of it. There is no rescue service coming to save me. My friend who I talk to regularly about my issues has fallen to depression and is drinking alcohol daily to drown his sorrows. Trying to talk to him now is like talking to a brick wall. The local support group I joined to help me cope with mental issues and mental disorders has not been a help of late. Some guy just committed suicide and it is frightening. The only reliable source of encouragement has been members of this forum. Thanks guys! Anyway, at this juncture, only I can get myself of this pessimistic mental funk. No one else will do it for me. Today, I declare this day PMO free for me. PMO is not an option today.
i recommend you to watch dr dispenza's clip as much as you can. google it you can find it. 15 min every day is good. do meditation from the one that i sent to you ,and there is another good one too. by brendon buchard
we are here for you just read carefully the +120 days that i sent to you, it will help you beyond your imagination. i am here,be calm man, every 24 hour i will check , so tell every problem or things that are in your head that create problem. once again i say to you that create new identity and character for yourself and every night or day flourish it in your mind with the help of dr dispenza's meditation. in this way you will get a new outcome. you can't get a new reality(outcome) by the same personality. i believe in you. i am a different person than the past,i feel different, i am calm because i did the things i mentioned.
Day 99 almost a triple digit midget it'sunbelievable how far I've come it's not believable the thingsI've done I spoke with a female yesterday on a conversation about healing for females as a male our brain is trying to speed this thing up because that's what we do we want to try to fix things but we failed realize is the other person we can't fix them they have to come to that realization thatthey're okay and that'sgoing to be in their time not at your time I realize how much pain my wife is actually in I can see it in her face sometimes I will do whatever it takesas long as it takes to continue our restorativeprocess in our marriageGod chooses and she decides
I picked something about Brahmacharya (celibacy to true enlightenment) in the link you provided. I actually read a book on Brahmacharya and it helped me get to 61 days noPMO in my initial long streak. However, I found this way of life quite restrictive and it felt like I was sacrificing something (my sexuality) which brings me back to the point regarding me not really wanting to quit PMO in the back of my mind. I guess one can leverage the fact that Brahmacharya promotes though in a small way the idea of transmuting sexual energy. I liked the way a Bramacharin is supposed to train his mind to look at women when lust starts to creep in his mind. For a while it worked for me, and at times i did not even look or glance at women or porn. All in all, I like more of Joe Dispenza's work because it attacks the root of my problems: rehearsed, memorized or trapped negative emotions. It addresses the fact that I am living in the past despite it being a new day. So I think I want to fully immerse in this philosophy and its meditations. And I thank you for that.
hardly to believe it works. after 3 weeks i feel so much better and stable. i see now that lonelyness is the first thing to accept. and it was so easy easy to put a big cover over this lonelyness. a cover from paper and digital porn material. the soon weakness is knocking ... knock, knock .... i took the notebook and faded away in this ugly world of xxx. it is about 20 days now. it is like this: every day i'm looking a little bit further out of my shell. i feel myself.... it is like my soul is growing .... i am interested in real living women and i am open to look forward for the next steps. step by step out of this ugly darkness. I am sure ... the moment it is coming over you with this challenge here you have also good chances to win again. believe me: thats what i am seeing now ... and it is after 20 days: it is so different and better. i wish you guys also to grow a little bit every day ... be patient. be strong.
YES I WANT TO PARTICIPATE! HO HO HO! 365 DAY CHALLENGE DO I HEAR?! SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN! ALRIGHT! Off I go. Today is day zero. 0. Yep. Just fapped to porn. Did it make me feel good? Nope. Did it make me feel just a little good while doing it? Nope. In fact, I was wondering, why can't I stop? It was consuming. I don't like being enslaved. God help me on this eternal journey that starts with 365 finite days. It is only through Jesus that I have hope. DAY 0/365
18 days down. Thanks a lot. To be honest, it has been very difficult for me to be PMO free for more than a few days recently. At the moment I am back to my 'zero tolerance' strategy, which means immeditaley ending sexual thoughts, before they can even form. I have found that it takes a lot less energy to avoid sexual thoughts before they really start, than to fight against a fully delevopled fantasy. Also I struggle and suffer a lot less since I started it. I really hope I'm gonna reach the goal this time, and I hope you are gonna join me there!
If you think you are weak then you will be the same ... If you think you are strong then you will be the same ... Choose your words wisely ...
Day 12 completed ... Sorry guys I slipped through Porn for some time ... But found myself in better control ... Fully controlled my mind and closed it off for good ... I will be careful that this doesn't happen again ...
