35yo, way to go, need an accountability partner

Hello Fapstronauts,
I am 35 yo, I have a wife and two beautiful children, yet I still struggle with M.
I've discovered M "by accident" as a 6yo and a strong addiction was developped. Since then I've never been abstaint from M for a longer time.
I've been for a long time on a therapy that helped me process so much...I've found that my inability to connect emotionally caused my addiction to M. Now after therapy I got so much better, but the tendency to M and sometimes watch P was still not manageable for me. When I am tired (which is often due to complicated work), when I am frustrated, I fail.
I have tons of blocking apps on my phone, but the lust thing sometimes just ovewhelms me. It stays in my life like a big pile of rotten stuff in the middle of such a nice surroundings.
I was never sober from M for more than 2 weeks. Crazy.
I have such a beautiful wife that other guys just stare at on the street but I don't feel physically attracted to her nearly as much as I would want and desire.
I desperately want to be clean. Now I am going this way and trying to join this community.
I think I really need an accountability partner. Would anyone be willing to share a message every day about how we are doing? Best are encrypted chat apps like telegram. I am up to being very opened, sincere and accountable.
I want to do a 30 days challenge first. However, my main goal is 90 days.
I hope so much I can start fighting M on a new level here.
Thanks guys! Give me a PM please if you would be up to check regularly on each other!