I got drunk Thursday night. While I recovered Friday, I was still mentally weakened on Saturday. I think thats what did it. It started with a pic on FB of all things too. I didnt think that would get me, but it steamrolled from there. At leasr now I know. Ill take this as a learning moment. Many years ago, I quit smoking. It took a few tries before I realized that I couldnt even have just one....even after months of not smoking. In many ways, this is the same thing. Im not going to beat myself up. I had a 22 day streak and Im proud of that. Now its time to build on what I did right and avoid the wrong. Live and learn. Thanks for the support guys!
I love that you're not beating yourself up over it. Those subtle triggers are the ones that I feel I have to be especially vigilant about. Congrats on moving forward.
Checking in. All going pretty well. Fluctuations in libido but overall feeling well. Porn a distant memory at the moment and has no pull over me
My sexual energy seems to keep wanting to express it self yet I am constantly discipling myself to relax- there is a craving for pleasure through sex - there is also wisdom and peacefulness of knowing it doest really give me what i deeply want and I can renounce it for this year. Happiness is changing its meaning. Giving up coffee (day 22) has been a miracle. Im starting to feel more alert and awake it has taken almost 3 weeks to get to feeling free from it yet not fully there, still have a little desire for it but it is getting less and less - Energy is steady through the day. no more extremly high times and overexcitement, and no more crashing down and depression, one continual contentment seems to be the theme of the day these days
Is the group full ? I would like to join it. Trying to beat a decade long addiction and i would apreciate the help and support.
Hello! Yes, the group is full but I add you to the waiting list, maybe in a few days we will have vacancies. I take this opportunity to encourage you in your decision to beat PM, go ahead because it is possible! While you are waiting to be a member of the group, it will be very helpful to read the posts and participate.
Congrats @parad0x ! You have received the six months medal of honor! A prize for constancy and inner strength!
It's a good idea, @RightEffort ! We could follow in the footsteps of our model group "35 and Older Accountability Group", which in recent days has incorporated this new recognition: 9 Month Sash of PersistenceAlthough I would like to do it when someone else arrives at that mark... so that it doesn't seem like I make up awards for myself !
Hi @teece & @IveBetterThingsToDo ! We haven't heard from you for more than 30 days ... are you still among us?
Sounds good. Also for me 1 year is the most important milestone. Anything for a year makes it so much easier to be kept for life.
We have the three-month cup, the medal of honor at 6, the prize at 9 was created in our twin group. We could create the crown of the year. I propose some names for that crown, let's choose or propose one! 6 Month Medal of Honor 9 Month Sash of Persitence 1 Year Crown of ¿Victory / Willpower / Effort / Wisdom / Balance?
Sweet! I like them a lot. I personally Like Crown Of Victory (1yr) or Crown of Self Restraint (2 yrs) or Crown of Freedom (5 yrs) Because it is a true victory to remain self retrained for 1 year. I'm open for others feedback though
Congrats man - such a great gift to have you with us practicing this way of life. How are you feeling? How would you describe your different from 6 months ago? How has this affected another area of your life and the people you love?
Congratulations @parad0x! I need all the help I can get. Would you mind sharing a few keys to your success?? Thanks and I wish you continued success on your chosen path