32 y.o. - Started at 18 - Certain I Have PIED

Hi All -

I am 32 years old, currently at Day 20 - which many are saying is very early to experiencing NoFap. I have stayed off of social media, cut off porn sites and focused on being more present.

Some things I have experienced before I started NoFap:

1. Able to maintain an erection and climax while masturbating with and without porn/erotic fiction. But mostly involved with porn.
2. Been on and off antidepressants (Viibryd - 20mg and then 40mg).
2a. At 20mg, I felt like my anxiety dropped and felt like my erections were good (before I was put on it).
2b. At 40mg, I noticed the delay in orgasm as a result. Was still able to maintain an erection, but definitely a delayed ejaculation.

Since I have started NoFap.

For the first couple of days, I'd find myself waking up from REM sleep with an erection or nocturnal erections in the middle of the night.

After approximately 4 or 5 days, I experienced a dead libido. No stimulation, no nothing.

Every once in a while, I'd experience a slight erection during the day, but aside from that I had nothing. My libido is gone. I learned from a previous post that this damage could very well be permanent.

1. In my teenage years, I never masturbated. In fact, I had a successful sex life at 18-19. Had a girlfriend I was crazy about and had great sex with her. After I started fapping (when she moved away to college), is when it failed. She even warned me about this as I started this unhealthy habit - it's all my fault.

2. I started going like 2-3 times a day. By my early 20s I'd say I was fapping once a day since I worked often, but spent numerous hours looking at pornographic images or something sexual through fiction or images.

At 32, I feel like either I am aging naturally or I'm just falling victim to PIED even more. Sex with real women is numbing. A few years ago I had sex, but it wasn't the greatest - I was not on any medication at the time. I kept the erection, but we were interrupted when her roommates arrived back at her apartment.

Then, I continued fapping after that ended - NYE 2018, I tried but was not successful.

Recently, had a girl at my house, was kissing her and working my way in. I had some wine to drink in hopes of relaxing me. I had an erection but when we moved from my couch to my bedroom, it died.

This past weekend, she was at my house. When she arrived, I'd hug her and I guess press against her and I'd achieve a weak erection periodically while cuddling with her. That was really it.

I'm not sure my dilemma and maybe some of you can help me.

My Actions
1. Stopped PMOing. No artificial stimulation at all. This has been a wakeup call, and caused me to wake up Sunday night into Monday with a major panic attack.
2. Called Sex therapists. I have spoken to 2 others via voicemail but have not followed up.
3. I started exercising again since I have not been consistent with it - I have hardly taken part in any cardiovascular activity.
4. Taking vitamin B, Zinc & multivitamin.
5. Getting more into hobbies - I am getting more into cooking and dabbling with baking bread.

 

How do I feel? I feel nice being with her, but I do put a lot of pressure on myself to achieve an erection when I am intimate with her, which can be counterproductive.

 

Do you mind if I ask what brought you to this conclusion?

 

Sex skills? No, specifically related to PIED. Worried that will happen in the middle of intercourse - and result in a negative outcome.

 

Then I will take it!

 

what is your history with nofap? What positives have you experienced?

 

I'd say more than 90 for me. I'm still in the 20-something days, but Idk. I wonder if a break from the internet all together will help.

 

I'd say more than 90 for me. I'm still in the 20-something days, but Idk. I wonder if a break from the internet all together will help.