300 no PMO

I hit 300 on Sunday. No PMO. No fantasy.

I used to relapse every 3 to 5 days, and what I have learned is that if you want live a chaste life, you have to be willing to overhaul your life. To look at all areas. All patterns.

PRAYER
COLD SHOWERS
WHAT YOU READ
WHAT YOU WATCH
WHAT YOU IMAGINE
WHAT YOU TALK ABOUT
WHAT YOU SAY TO YOURSELF
HOW YOU DEFINE YOURSELF
HOW YOU DEFINE OTHERS
HOW YOU SET GOALS
HOW YOU SLEEP
HOW YOU EAT
HOW YOU EXERCIZE
HOW YOU WORK
HOW YOU VOLUNTEER
WHO YOU SPEND TIME WITH.

EVERYTHING. EXAMINE EVERYTHING .

The old definition of insanity: "doing the same thing over and over expecting different results."

GOD'S PEACE

 

I would not know. No PMO (O for orgasm)

GOD'S PEACE!!!

 

DAY 322 NO PMO

All - Sorry about delayed response. Finally catching up.

Here's my background. I've been dealing with PMO for decades. It began when I was about 7 years old - a group in my neighborhood found a garbage bag of porn in an abandoned lot. (Someone had tried to deal with their problem by abandoning it.) At that point I simply looked at the images. Probably 100 magazines in a bag. Like a website binge, long before it was available. It burned a neuro-pathway that I battled for 40 years. (I'm 47).

Found Nofap last summer and after reading I signed up and never looked back. No relapse. Done.

What I have learned over the last 321 days is that I treated women like God. Throughout my life, my end goal in all things would be for women. If a beautiful woman disapproved, I would lose myself. If i did not get a response, even from a stranger, I would drop my confidence. Everything was conditioned on a woman's positive response.

Regarding pornography - pornographic images tricked my brain into feeling accepted and loved by thousands of women. I maintained that illusion for my broken brain for years. Years. I felt good because i felt accepted and approved.

All of this killed dating relationships because I was always taking my cue from the acceptance of women. If a women was upset, I would do anything to change myself.

Tried to quit with no success. For years. Maximum 3.5 months in college.

Found Nofap last Summer. I learned 2 things: 1) The witness of people successfully walking away from PMO. And 2) I learned how to my brain worked.

I made personal commmitments that have helped. I am strict with how I treat Internet and tv. I did a cold shower run of 100 days about 16 days in. I'm 2 months into another cold shower run (this strengthens the prefrontal cortex against the limbic brain urge )
Additionally I pray an hour daily. This is a non negotiable for me.

Big benefit? After 40 years of worshiping women, I am now at a place where I am able to relate to women with strength, love and generosity. If i disagree with a beautiful woman, I confidently speak from that point of disagreement and I'm not afraid of rejection. This has changed my life. I have learned that women are not perfect just as i am not perfect. I have learned that they dont want to be worshipped. They want to be treated like a human being, not a god.

My goal in life is to be a man of virtue, ready and prepared to respond to God and to serve others. This is the most free that I have ever felt in my life.

GOD'S PEACE.