30 days but....

You must be a very strong person not to relapse for 30 days in such unpleasant stressful circumstances.

 

Our stories are different but the result is almost same. No friends, feeling lonely, Got played emotionally by gf. So out of relationship for almost 10 months. I too dream of past in the weak moments now.

I think i can help you with this a little.
Dude I am very emotional person by nature. After the relationship I was heartbroken. despite of this, my friends thought it was me the culprit in the relationship. But i never did anything wrong. Yet i was blamed and got no friends.

(MY story but not going in detail. Just a glance)
Every single day I sit in a class where no one talks to me. My ex same class and she enjoys her life with friends. The thing is she is mentally ill (Covert Narcissist) and she covers it up very well when people around her. So everyday its use to be hell both at home and college for me. After few months like this with depression and hell in college, one day i started to realize on my own that life is like this. Nothing happens in favour to us. Life is full of ups and downs. So i started to get motivated with Youtube videos and self help books. I tried to remember my childhood memories and tried to stop being depressed. I started to use the time which i feel lonely with my old left hobbies. In starting all these use to be difficult to execute but with my trying, it got easy with time. Even today too i still don't have friends and they don't know the truth and even if i told them they wont believe me. But I no more give a fuck about i don't have friends. I still feel depressed even now and then (only in weak moments) but I don't give it much time to be on me. I still remember my relationship memories, I let myself mourn for it and let that frustration leave my mind and body.

Buddy what i am saying is mourn for your lose but don't let it consume you. How you made it 30 days just like that use the same technique for your problems right now. With time you learn to replace the lose with positive feelings. You will once again back to college and you will be better than ever given your efforts in replacing the negativity in you right now with positivity. Learn every single second of your time. Never stop learning. Learn whatever you can Because it will make things better and better in the end. What ever you are going through right now will only make you mentally and emotionally stronger than you ever imagined. Give it time.

Answer to your question:
GIVING IT TIME.
LEARNING CONTINUOUSLY.
ACCEPTING THE SITUATION AND LIFE.

Cheers.