Been on a relapse binge for the past three days, I feel so worthless and shit. PMO have always been a coping mechanism for me when I’m depressed or anxious. Gonna get my shit together, I don’t want to escape anymore. I want to be happy again, these past few years have been numbing. Felt so disassociated, desensitised and apathetic. Everyday seems like a fight against my own inner demons. Gonna reset, day 1/30. Sry I had to vent!
I believe you can do it because everybody can and I bet you not an exception. My tip would be: when you have some free time don’t rush to do the fun things, first stop to calm your mind and maybe give yourself some boredome time, then it will be easier to do the harder things
I know exactly how you feel, been there many times... try to realise you don’t have to flee from your feelings, even if they are not joyful. It’s part of life to feel a bit down sometimes, so instead of fleeing from the situation, embrace it. It’s not dangerous to be depressed as long as you don’t hurt yourself. Cardio training is proven to cure depression, maybe you can try that next time. It’s a wonderful feeling to cure the depression instead of going back to old drugs (p). I believe in you.
Day 15 complete! I have once reached a 37 day streak then I fell and had a few short streaks during which I have learned the importance of fighting off small temptations that aren’t PM. I continue no-phishing and thougt control, things are looking good. Though my relationship with my wife got better now and I am horny for her, I must contain myself only for her.
