Day 2/30. Another beautiful day. I'm already happy that I made it to day 2. 2 days seems small but hey sometimes I used to not make it to day 2. Growth does happen and I'm excited to get to day 3 because that's almost half a week. Let's crush it!
Day 26: I've been experiencing many impure dreams, no, NIGHTMARES, these past few nights, where I relapse in the nightmare. I feel such shame in the dream, it feels so real. Yet I wake up, and ask God to help me remain chaste, pure, abstinent and continent. Though today, I was falling asleep and impure thoughts kept attacking me, too. Now is the time for me to be on guard more than ever, and to pray whenever something remotely impure crosses my mind. I need to maintain custody of my eyes, as well as of my mind. Otherwise, I'm doing alright, and since I've been eating more meat (sirloin steak every 3-4 days) I feel like my testosterone levels are higher than they were in the last few weeks, and also higher than my last streak which was over a year. Anyway, stay strong, guys. Maintain custody of your eyes and of your mind, trust the process and pray, pray, pray!!! Ask God for help, and God will help you!
Day 4 still need to be more disciplined and not get into procrastination constantly, but everyday without PMO is an an improvement
Day 27: Today is a tough day. Impure thoughts keep occurring, BUT I WILL NEVER GIVE IN TO TEMPTATION!!!
Day 3/30 made it to the night time A OK. Planning on going to bed earlier each night. 10:30pm is great because staying up late (near midnight) there are stronger urges (even though I had none so far) Great Day!
Day 26 Couldn't sleep last night, had urges to see an escort. One didnt respond. Was almost going for the second one, but i didn't go thankfully. Did squats yesterday still the urges won't reduce. Barely slept last night. Today too I surfed the escort ads, if this continues, I am bound to either PMO and visit an escort and succumb to my urges, you might say going to escort is better than PMO but fuck man, it costs a lot of money and it's just a way of escaping the reality and inability to accept the fact that the only way I can sleep with a chick is by paying her. Its so emasculating. God help me.