2nd attempt... This time I'll succeed!

Hi everybody,

This my second time trying to reboot and to quit porn and I'm confident this time I'll be succesfull!

Last time I did a 40 day no PMO streak(without using forums), with the objective of changing how I see women and never again using porn. I wanted and still want to quit porn for all the harm it does to society(including me and my friends), for being such a sexist industry and for other reasons. I did succeed in the 40 days abstinence but I ended using porn when a girl sent me pictures of her nude. After fapping to those, I started fapping to porn about my fetish, which didn't include nudes... but sadly later on I went back to fapping with all the porn I always had, it took a few months and I resisted quite a lot, but in the end I caved.

My objective is the same as last time, spending 40 days with no PMO. I want to reboot my brain, this time for good, and leave porn behind permanently.

Seeing how last time went, it seems 40 days will not be enough to reboot the mark that nearly 15 years of porn have left on my brain. But I think never using porn again and gaining healthier masturbation habits will have a deeper impact on my brain than doing really long streaks, that's just my personal opinion and how I wanna tackle this matter to make the solution as long lasting as possible.

If I succeed, I will stop having such a strong and uncontrollable urges. So really I will have reached my goal when I am capable of masturbating regularly without using porn and without thinking about it or missing it, as well as seeing the female body in a less sexualized manner, because right know I sexualize almost 99.9 % of the female body...

At the moment I'm suffering from quite a bit of anxiety and I'm having trouble dealing with my social and academic live, it's not always been like this but in the past few years anxiety has been in and out of my life. But if I get better soon, which I think I will for I'm finally starting to see my way out of this hole, I have to remember to not orgasm until I feel I've made the changes I want on my brain about sexuality and women in general, which include studying about feminism meanwhile I'm rebooting. I have my whole life ahead of me to fuck and have fun, so the sooner I change the things about me I don't like(and most woman don't) the better for everyone, I can wait a year to have sex again if necessary.

If I'm struggling a lot I will be posting regularly here, other wise you won't see much of me. So I hope you don't have to read too much of my boring whining here .

Good luck to everybody in here with their journey! Try as hard as you can but don't be too hard on your self if you fail.

PD: if you're suffering from intense anxiety or depression and are struggling at the moment, please consider seeking professional help, in my case it literally saved my life a year ago and I really wouldn't like any one to go through what I went if it can be avoided.