29yo, male, no purpose

Hi,

This is my first time here, or ever posting about nofap, as a matter of fact... I've been at this habit since I was around 12... That's when porn entered into my life, but I was stimulating myself in different ways earlier as well.

Today I am at day 53 nofap/not using porn and day 27 since last having sex. It is my second time doing nofap, last time lasted around 90 days. I have been masturbating daily, some escalations to watching lolita pictures in the past and escorts in the last two years... (writing this and spilling it out proves to be an uncomfortable experience right in this moment).

Anyways, I've come clean regarding my escort use with my wife, I didn't quite tell her about the sexual addiction (masturbation, porn sites etc). This second try, I am also doing semen retention and yoga - which I told her about, so we only have sex once or twice a month, as we're also trying to have a baby so we only do it when the time is right.

The main issue I have is hypofrontality and a very acute sense of lacking purpose in life and I find myself to be very "infatuated" with my mind... I live mostly in my head, instead of smelling the flowers, If you know what I mean...

So, short bio been said, I shall stop here...

Thank you.