Hey, My name is Mark and I've been into porn since dial up internet, so roughly 11. The longest time I spent without porn was maybe 14-20 days As a kid I saw a big breasted model in a womans gossip magazine so have always been fixated on naturally large breasts since beginning my absolutely useless time-wasting quest to watch porn. I could come and feel natural again with my previous girlfriend if I stop watching it. I would masturbate to porn roughly 3-5 times a week when I was living with her depending on how much sex was initiated. I've slept with around 8 women in my life always getting to know them first then beginning a short or medium term relationships. I have been a recreational drug user since I was 16. I used to smoke weed everyday until i was around 20, i smoked for a few years too but i quit on July 1st, 2013. After I found out my latest girlfriend wanted to leave me, I used meth a bit, for like 2 months on and off, its a disgusting drug that can really affect porn addiction and take it to new heights. I had some that i purchased from a party but now that I have run out I don't plan to spend any more money in that department. Otherwise nowadays I get drug tested at work and make decent coin, so its not worth it for me to risk my job. I guess that was my main motivator for not using drugs in early 2014. If I have a week off work for holiday I like to have a joint at the beginning, then by the end it would be out of my urinary system. Anyway that is a rare occasion and I think that all drugs do not help my problem and overcoming it. My latest girlfriend who left me about 3 weeks ago was a very good girlfriend, I ended up being honest with her and telling her of my problem, I told her around 9 months into the relationship that I had a problem with porn, she could already see the signs in our love making, sometimes i wouldn't be able to cum, other times i just went soft or have no sense of connection. She left recently after 14 months. We were good friends for about 13 years since the beginning of high school and we still talk, but she was very upset about the porn. She keeps reminding me of it which doesn't help me, but i guess now that she reminded me again that i need help, i heard someone talk about nofap. So here I am ready to give it a go. I'm planning on moving into a new house next week on the start of April so my quit date will be 1st of April 2016, the day i quit PORN! I've attempted to quit many times but this time I am more motivated than ever, set a date and also joined this website. I also plan to have no internet at my new place apart from my phone plan, so i will only have 10 gigs of data which is more than enough for checking this website out and just general basic internet duties. I would like to put a child lock on my phone so I can't go to bad websites. I really want to get into the right mind state for this. To tell myself that I know I will become a better person because of it.
