I found nofap last month when I was desperate to stop PMO. I signed up and read a ton of stuff and was feeling very strong the first couple of weeks without PMO. I went 25 days with no PMO for the first time in a very long time. But I've binged the past 2 days in row. I lost the guilt and shame I felt about my addiction and then yesterday I gave in and binged for a few hours on PMO and cyber sex on AOL. I felt it calling me again this morning on the way to my office and I gave in again. About 3-4 hour binge today. Just deleted everything and washed my machine but I have to change up my strategy somehow. I am so freaking weak sometimes its ridiculous I have to get something that will not allow me to install aol on my computer And then a permanent filter so I cant uninstall it And I probably need to find a way to work in an office with other people. I usually work in my own office alone each day and it’s a trigger to be alone I think. The complete failure and frustration I feel right now makes me sick with myself. I constantly have a hard time paying my bills and getting ahead of things and its so clear that if I just spent my time prospecting for new leads or just calling clients and checking in with them I would get more referrals and more business. But I keep going back to this PMO like a junkie to the dealer. I am starting over and I am thankful to have nofap.com as a great resource
I know exactly how you feel. Getting a filter like k9 on your computer can really help, however this is only part of a package of things that you need to do to overcome this. Much of it will be down to your thoughts - recognising the triggers and then dealing with them in the right way - and having a plan of action when they do strike. Keep coming here, don't beat yourself up too much, dust yourself down, and then start again. Do you have an accountability partner?
hi changingmylife - no i do not have an accountability partner. I should probably get one though. the only place i have PMO'd for a long time is my office. When i get a trigger or an urge i should probably just get the f out of here for a little while
Hi about that filter thing.K9 works good i installed it myself but had to uninstall it because it had a problem with avast antivirus.when you install it you can't uninstall it unless you give it the password and it has a lot of options to block sites.you just have to not know the password and give it to someone.plus you can't uninstall it unless you have the password so there is no way to go to any porn site.you can also add sites to it and it blocks them too.hope it works for you. http://www.k9webprotection.com/
just installed K9 Web Protection onto this computer but i dont know someone that i can do the password for me - hard to explain that to someone to come in my office and type in a password and dont tell me what it is.... they might get a bit suspicious..... lol
you can give it to me if you want .it would be better to give it to me on skype so whenever you wanted it i can give it to you
i did it again - had a great meeting first thing in the morning then started thinking and when i got alone at office just binged again then i feel guilty and purge everything out and feel stupid this sucks
i did great for 25 straight days and most of it was easy - now i cant even go a fucking day without binging on pmo
when you start thinking about it divert your mind from thinking about it and think about sth else.and also don't look at anything that might trigger it whether it's on sites or in reality when you see a female don't look at her and if you have to look at her because you are talking to her keep it as short as possible.
DON'T use guilt or shame as a foundation for your reboot. If you do, you are doomed for a long term relapse/recovery cycle. I recommend you check out Recovery Nation for more detailed information.
thanks guys - yeah i need to prepare myself when driving into work each day - appreciate your feedback thanks
