Day 17 of 21 is done. I have been stuffing my anger and have no real way to let it out which is very dangerous for my PMO sobriety. I am at 41 days total (since Dec 31 of last year). For what ever reason, 45 days is hard for me to get past. I am on the road tomorrow so I am really concerned that I will act out once I get to the hotel and blow it all. I have made a commitment for no alcohol when I am on the road. I am now making another commitment to journal as soon as I get to the hotel. I need to write about my anger and how to take more positive steps in dealing with it other than a full binge PMO session.
Day 18 of 21 success! Tonight will be difficult and hanging on by fingernails. Discipline will be key to knock down the PMO monster while I am on the road tonight at a hotel. Discipline will be key: Devotional, Journaling, no alcohol, checking in will be key.
Day 19 of 21 was a successful. It had all the elements of taking me down but didn't! Being PMO free never felt so good! I know how I would be feeling today if I had indulged and it would have sucked. I am feeling good and don't want it to stop.