1ST Official No Fapping run

Failed myself here, got to casual with protecting myself and opened myself up to the window for failure. Ultimately succumbing to this self created pressure from getting too casual and comfortable.

 

New run at nofap beginning on the first of September.
Going to attempt to survive until the end of the year and then a new year new start should be enough to spur me on to the finish line of completely forgetting fapping.

Tools to be implemented include:
No timeless wondering the internet
No social media more than once a month
No Junkfood(creates a feeling sorry for yourself situation ideal for fapping)
No missing cold shower challenge(warm showers creates a fapping environment)
No music
No looking at rude scenes in movies
Avoid movies with showoff actresses(trigger)
Free time consumed with studying, working out, catching up on sleep, working on business, catching up with friends, reading the book, using the counter, doing nfil(if not already done immediately), doing sunh.
NOW OR NEVER

 

Failed myself here, hopefully it does not mean never.

New run 05/11/2015
Day 1 going to be no urges as just soiled myself yesterday

 

6 days in 11/11/15 first sense of semi-strong urge. Normally this is followed by consistent growing urges for another week/or two and then the urges will continuously get weaker and months go by much easier. Week 1 almost complete, week 1, 2, 3 being the biggest hurdle to win

 

Failed again after 32days of hard mode, masturbated on 'boobs'.
Been having vivid visions of big boobs and things related to them for some reason, I've been feeling the dangers for the past week or so. Suddenly came a day where I skipped breakfast and lunch, was starving, was 30degrees and was working outside(in addition to missing the meals), Spent half the day looking at girls on a dating website(for the first time in 3 months logging in) and broke my rule of having mobile data on my phone, lost the battle today but certainly have made grand progress. I for the first time have studied myself enough to know exactly what it takes for me to succeed.
- No internet data
- Internet filtered on desktop
- No dating websites(similar to facebook as a trigger)
- No missing meals and being dehydrated(particularly on hot days)
- Missed my daily prayers too which helps keep me grounded and in a calm controlled state, missing these leaves me exceedingly vulnerable to my desires
- Will not allow this one quick impulse responded blunder to destroy my progress, life was really starting to become fantastic(better than it has been in years, possibly better than its ever been). Reverting to the insensitive immoral beast now would mean you fail yourself once and possibly permanently. 1 fail is not the end of the world, but the second trigger is always stronger than the first and so on. All things considered(regarding the day and a lack of preparation, and also overconfidence form the ease of 30days) led to another stumbling block.

Key lesson learnt today, no internet data, find a way to delete standard explorer, trying to never miss a meal again(maybe leave meal replacements and long life milk in boot) and always try to keep hydrated(meaning a glass of water atleast once every two hours(not 3 litres in one sitting)

Pretend like this one never happened and continue the streak at 31 days. Make sure to implement everything learnt today by tomorrow. If it happens again after implementing these steps, you will come to the realisation that very very drastic steps will have to be taken(selling computer, selling smartphone and buying traditional phone, selling tablet and any other multimedia device that can play pornography) Life is way way too short to be facing this battle again.

**Also learnt that racism in any form is not acceptable and is infact a trigger aswell, no person should be judged as a people in a good or a bad way(this includes this perverse 'fixation' with Indian and mixed race black/white women)

 

Day 31 06.12.15.

Its hard to stay consistent in typing up daily summaries like this, but it only takes 5 minutes at the end of the day, typing up a daily reminder like this will help to yield your greatest results. Starting from 31 and pretending like nothing happened today

 

Really hard last two days, constantly on edge and almost failing several several times. Really really struggling to cope against the tide and wave of graphic sexual fantasies.

Day 33 08.12.15
Havent caved in but struggling greatly

 

Urges building up again, had a very vivid and graphic vision last night 27/12/2015. Push on till the new year so the new years resolution can push you on for a further few months

 

Succumbed to the pressure again! Still excited for a new start in the new year. God willing !!

 

only 9 days into 2016 and here comes those sick desires. All it takes is one very beautiful girl and this blokes off to the toilet to do some perverted acts. Not this time, 2016 is going to be my year, masturbation desires you can get lost, you will not permanantely affect the quality of my life and this year i'm through with you, no matter how strong the sexual urge and desire, the option to masturbate is off the table, until I find a wife!

 

Day 13, the urges have got ridiculously strong, keep having this crazy urge of "do it this once", after doing it this one time, Certainly you can move on! LOL yeah right, gonna have to keep on fighting the devil within

 

Succumbed to the pressure! Gonna treat this like it doesn't count as the circumstances were of an extraordinary condition(Sick, Tired, Knackered, And going to dating websites non-stop. You get one credit for this one as you cant allow the new year momentum to be gone). Exeptional circumstances was why I threw in the towel today, gonna really need to find a permanent alternative to mindless hours of internet though, this is literally out of my control, if the window is there 24hours a day, a man can only reject and fight it for soo long, till he throws in the towel.

 

At that stage where just about every young woman on planet earth is looking attractive lol, testosterone overdrive

 

New longest run on all of the above except cold showers: 40 days!