Day 5/14/ sigh... I spent some time today looking at photos of girls in bikinis, in order to pass my urges. I feel horrible now, so I vow to never do that again. Since it wasn't P, M or O I won't count it as a relapse. But if I do that again, I will.
Day 1/14. Doing ok. Still in Flatline. Fine with that for now. in no rush for urges to return at this point.
Day 0. Relapsed last night. I did the exercises, did the reading, but still I couldn't sleep at first. Then I allowed bad thoughts to enter my head, but I didn't want to masturbate. Woke up many times during the night, masturbated, and eventually masturbated to orgasm. I actually just felt reliefed when I did, because I was so tired and already almost orgasming for so long into the night. Of course it wasn't good, but nonetheless I had a great day. Only I've been tired all day from lack of sleep and MO.
Day 1 out of Day 14 The most helpful thing for me during this journey is facing and challenging my fears. I fear social situations but I work at a coffee shop where I have to deal a lot with people. This took the power of fear a little bit away. Also I have a tendency to think negative during hard times. Now I'm challenging them through humming melodies and listening to positive and uplifting messages and music.
It's day one guys. Feeling a lot light less stressed and positive. I've got a little bit of a message here for you guys. "Each and every thought is forming new neural paths in the brain so if you keep thinking about porn you gradually somehow get to watching porn because it is getting imprinted to your brain by each and every thought. Whenever you notice such thoughts just distract yourself by urge surfing or something and think about something else and you'll get used to it". Thank you.